oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness.....
im upset enuf already with today but there was even an error when i try to post my post jz now!!!!!! my god!!! im going CRAZY~~ shit...=.=
fine...i was saying today i had a very damn bad day...
first my sing k session went boom...when my sister couldnt find someone to fetch her back from work and i had to do it...
then...i missed the time dear was looking for me when he felt unhappy....i felt totally bad bcz im useless for not being there for him when i needed him...i totally understand tat feeling...it jz sucks... im sorry hubby....
and then i accidentally answered his call which was totally stupid and cost him a lot of money...although it wasnt my fault as i couldnt ever hv known it was him under the circumstances...
and then the worst is dad decided tat unlike usual, i should not get any money from him to buy cny clothes this year!!! reason was : i already can earn my own money
my dreams are jz totally shattered...cz now i could not afford the higher end clothes i was patiently waiting the whole yr to buy it for the nx year's new year....
our tradition was dad giving us a certain amount of money to buy new year clothes and wear them for the whole year...=.= this is already a sucky tradition but i got over it...i jz wished to use this cny special treat to buy some higher end clothes which i crave for but could never afford it myself...and its now all gone...
i've already spent a lot this hols i don think i hv enuf to spend for higher end clothes....and in order to make sure i hv enuf to buy my new year clothes...i need to sacrifice and save on lots of stuff i've been craving to buy...or eat...or enjoy....T.T
and i was so so so looking forward to the shopping spree i could hv gotten in kl this year end...but...now its gone~ ALL GONE~ i could not afford any spree .....................................
byebye high end clothes...byebye shoes...byebye bag....byebye eye bag corrector gel...byebye colored contact lenses....byebye new specs....byebye new hp....byebye great present for dear....byebye sing k session...byebye great gift for mom....byebye jogoya....byebye everything i hv dreamt for....T.T
IM UPSET tat my dream is gone gone gone~~ but...wat can i do?
now economy is bad....i don blame dad either actually...just upset...i need time to adjust to new dreams and concept T.T
haiz.....i still don hv a new dream yet...will think of a new plan soon...hv to start counting finance stuff...hate it...=.= gosh~
and i guess i shud start to live a poor life from now on...great^^ ....wth
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