Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts

Thursday, July 9, 2009

opportunities?

 

what are opportunities?

are they good? are they bad?

which opportunities shud i go for? which chances shud i avoid?

does anyone have a formula to count and evaluate which opportunity shud i take and go for it??

pls if someone do have giv it to me!! and if this doesnt exist for god’s sake someone pls invent it!!! ugghhh….=.=

alright i’m an optimist and a stupid to hell person….i see EVERYTHING in the bright side. when something come flying in front of my face, flying here flying there seducing me with its cute little butt, all i see are the good things~ what benefits would i get if i take this opportunity and IF it is a good thing!

well, other ppl but me, sure see it in the negative side. the risks and the possiblities that it might just be a fake, risky and dangerous trap that i might fall into. wow they do not know how much i appreciate their opinions!! that’s why i asked…cz a person lk me who is TOO optimist NEEDS ppl to remind me of the things i would never have thought of…

but sometimes people are overdoing the negative thinking.

cz SERIOUSLY, is every opportunity a black hole? is every good thing a fake because NO GOOD THING HAPPEN IN THIS WORLD, on its own??

seriously…is this true? then what happens to all those rich and happy men around the world? they all started off poor and took the best chance and opportunity so they finally did it! how did they calculate the opportunity value? can they see the future? they all started from scratch!

well now, the problem is not with trying to stop me or anything. but mayb i asked and i brought this to myself….i feel down and defeated by all those negative energy ppl keep giving me. it’s not towards one or 2 people but it’s like MOST of ppl around me keep doing this. i kept feeling negative energy coming from all around me….

i want to keep my positive energy! that’s what that keeps me moving!!

i appreciate all the cautious warnings and opinions. i really need this. cz a total optimist is reli a hazard lol…

but i jz wish people around me would get some positive energy and live happier. doesnt it stinks to live in a world without hope? don see ALL the bad side in everything…. if we see the bad in everything and reject everything except what we have….in 10 years time we’ll still be in the same position…isnt it? when can we be the other bill gates, or the other donald trump? mayb we cant be but if there is 0.1% of hope shudnt we hold on to that? and giv our lives some hope and a smile?

i know opportunities = risks. but i think i wont regret taking false opportunities but i will definitely regret if it is a good opportunity and i dont grab it!!

isn’t this true? i think u mz heard of that saying since u were young…why doesnt anyone absorb it into mind?

p,s once again thanks to the ppl that gave me ur opinion and make me more aware of the risks in it..i really appreciate them and it really helps a lot…

Friday, June 26, 2009

selfish

yup that’s it~

i’ve done something wrong and i was acting really selfish. i’m very sorry and i hope that i can be forgiven.

i’ll put my mistake in mind and try not to be selfish anymore.

i’m sorry.

apology: http://kiwi-sprivatethoughts.blogspot.com/2009/06/selfish.html

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

It's all over...but i result in emptiness

It's all over....the hectic life....

the life i stay in between.....

It's over....

but the results is...i feel down....

i did not achieve anything....

i fail in everything because i was not able to commit 100% in anything.....

i feel lost....

i feel empty.....

i see others achieve....but i have nothing....

it's a too long story which i would only write about when i have the time....

anw, i can still blog about the major events and upload some pictures but i'll have to wait for the pictures...

till then,

i miss him a lot...T.T sorry that i cannot give u a hundred percent...

Friday, December 12, 2008

Thursday, December 11, 2008

下雨天 by lara 南拳妈妈

作曲:张杰 作词:张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你

不敢打给你 我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉

沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺 谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫 谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴其实

没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Thursday, December 4, 2008

oh my goodness...dreams shattered by sudden decision from dad...

oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness.....

im upset enuf already with today but there was even an error when i try to post my post jz now!!!!!! my god!!! im going CRAZY~~ shit...=.=

fine...i was saying today i had a very damn bad day...

first my sing k session went boom...when my sister couldnt find someone to fetch her back from work and i had to do it...

then...i missed the time dear was looking for me when he felt unhappy....i felt totally bad bcz im useless for not being there for him when i needed him...i totally understand tat feeling...it jz sucks... im sorry hubby....

and then i accidentally answered his call which was totally stupid and cost him a lot of money...although it wasnt my fault as i couldnt ever hv known it was him under the circumstances...

and then the worst is dad decided tat unlike usual, i should not get any money from him to buy cny clothes this year!!! reason was : i already can earn my own money
my dreams are jz totally shattered...cz now i could not afford the higher end clothes i was patiently waiting the whole yr to buy it for the nx year's new year....
our tradition was dad giving us a certain amount of money to buy new year clothes and wear them for the whole year...=.= this is already a sucky tradition but i got over it...i jz wished to use this cny special treat to buy some higher end clothes which i crave for but could never afford it myself...and its now all gone...
i've already spent a lot this hols i don think i hv enuf to spend for higher end clothes....and in order to make sure i hv enuf to buy my new year clothes...i need to sacrifice and save on lots of stuff i've been craving to buy...or eat...or enjoy....T.T
and i was so so so looking forward to the shopping spree i could hv gotten in kl this year end...but...now its gone~ ALL GONE~ i could not afford any spree .....................................
byebye high end clothes...byebye shoes...byebye bag....byebye eye bag corrector gel...byebye colored contact lenses....byebye new specs....byebye new hp....byebye great present for dear....byebye sing k session...byebye great gift for mom....byebye jogoya....byebye everything i hv dreamt for....T.T

IM UPSET tat my dream is gone gone gone~~ but...wat can i do?
now economy is bad....i don blame dad either actually...just upset...i need time to adjust to new dreams and concept T.T

haiz.....i still don hv a new dream yet...will think of a new plan soon...hv to start counting finance stuff...hate it...=.= gosh~

and i guess i shud start to live a poor life from now on...great^^ ....wth