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alright. i have quite some stuff to update and some stuff to tell.
but for today i'll be pretty busy packing up my stuff back to kl and i hvnt started anything yet. shit...
i'll be going back to kl tomorrow!

oh how complicated my feelings are...

anyway in rush of time. will come back later if i have the time tonight^^

This is My Card - the wheel of fortune

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

yea...it's kinda true...hah....

i've been lucky most of the time. i've been living quite happily. i've been passing my exams. i've been having great people, family and friends around me. sometimes im so grateful for the people that i know. hee...i've always known i'm lucky^^

and yea....i've sometimes been thinking when will my luck run out? haha....i mean i believe that life is fair. i've had my lucky times so im doomed to have my bad luck times right?

during my secondary school days i've always pushed myself to study harder by just this way, telling myself that i've been really lucky for the past few times i dont think i'd be that lucky the next time so i must give it all i have hah...

but now, i wish, and i believe that i'd be having luck around me at all times^^ i don mind some small misfortunes..but please...not major ones hee...

new resolution + xmas rambling

MERRY XMAS!!!! hahaha...
boring christmas i had this year...no parties...but i had fun went shopping at queensbay with family =p oh yea bought a super nice topshop top which costs me rm100 after 50% discount =.= my gosh...but lked it a lot hehe will upload pics of it later with my new year clothes collection ^^(tat's if im able to get a camera fon haha)

anw i just wanted to remind myself here of my new next year resolution haha^^

- 我要活得像单身贵族 -


hee...enuf for now...not the time to think of philosophical stuff...will get back to details some other time hehe

bye...and MErRy CHRiSTMAS again!!

year end thoughts

long time din blog le~ haha
nth special happened actually...i mean no events...
but went thru some emotional changes also la haha...but its all over~

well, lately busy with work lo....now got extra 2 days work summore....
at the new jusco at bm...now i learnt the way to another shopping mall le! haha...increasing my collection of known routes =p

mom's bday jz passed..yesterday... well, i took out all my money in ALL of my banks haha...just to give her her bday present which is rm500 cash. Now im officially broke! haha....
stupid salary delay...now i have no money to spend at all.
today saw one pair of jack parrcel plain black leather, the one dear have always wanted. he searched for it last semester but it was out of stock in kl. saw it in the mall i was working today. BUT i got no cash to get him a pair!! what should i do?
and..i want to buy hp...also no cash...where should i lahir the cash out from??
i wanna return daddy an amount of money for the petrol and toll cost which i used to work also cant.....
ish...I SERIOUSLY NEED CASH~~

i now order my salary to be banked in by the end of this week T.T

haha

Hmm...gonna leave work nx week le...gonna leave holiday life and going back to kl, study life le...
there are some things i miss in kl...but some that i dont haha....
and i thought i wouldnt miss life here cz it's boring...
but i realised i feel kinda berat hati to leave working life in pacific ler....
haha....
i experienced a very different feeling working there. i knew many new friends. many who appreciate me, or should say enjoy talking or have fun with me. i never feel lonely there. haha...
sometimes i feel like im well known among the workers in the mall. at first i was irritated by this attention. but now im so afraid that i might turn lonely after i left back to kl....
mayb its bcz everything turned out nice. b4 this last month i was a bit reluctant to go back to work bcz of the pressure of attention haha... but now it turned out that i made frens with most of them and they were actually ok...not as irritative as i thought they were hee... they turned out not giving me any pressure and i had fun talking with them^^
now i understand why some girls enjoyed people going after them. cz i slightly felt the warmth from that. mayb its bcz i've been quite lonely for the time being so it was this who gave me some warmth. but luckily im still able to be straight enough to not utilize those people on purpose.

what did i learn from this break? well i learnt how to interact with strangers or new met frens. i learnt how to be friendly yet poised and made myself very clear. i learnt new stuff and ways to interact with people. i learnt singing...improved lots! hee... i learnt belly dance...love it a lot^^ definitely wanna continue when back to kl... i secured myself jobs when back to kl hee...
oh ya, and i think i would sign up for the costume job one fren introduced me cz now i feel i hv more courage to wear costume and go out there lol. BUT....i still need to get over my 'face' problem yet hahaha....so still in consideration~

im basically happy with the result i get from this holidays.

the only regrets is i din go for my internship and i think i might fall behind a bit nx year. and i wasnt able to study ahead first for next year's syllabus! arrgh...all bcz the stupid library is on renovation shit=.=

next year's syllabus is very very tough. and by hubby coming back earlier this semester, i MUST make myself focus enough on studies so that i can score back in exams this semester!!

GOAL for year 2009 : Play hard, FOCUS hard!!

good luck to myself and, i will get what i demand for hehe =p

sleepless night 16.12.08

十二月16号的凌晨 我失眠了 哈
也不知是为什么...我没伤心啊，也没太兴奋呀…
也许是早上睡太多了...也许是因为喝了咖啡…
整夜想着无聊的事，也多看一次《再见了，转校生〉的戏…
戏里的那首歌，还真是超好听的！
听多少次都不会厌...而且好有感觉…戏已经看了好几次，每次看后都重复播放那首歌好多次 哈哈
真的很好听…

整夜没睡了，等下当然要累坏了...哈 糟糕
没办法…
但至少是做了件对的事….也也许是因为这件事睡不着觉 哈哈 整夜都抱着电话躺着了…深怕再次错过和搞砸叫醒他的任务………...这次总算稳稳的成功了 哈….

失眠的我…就祝我 今天接下来可以过的不要太辛苦吧 哈哈
也希望他今天过得好^^

he hates me now

.....he must hate me a lot now......

sorry sorry sorry x100

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tired alone

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下雨天 by lara 南拳妈妈

作曲：张杰 作词：张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你

不敢打给你 我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉

沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺 谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫 谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴其实

没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些 差别 结局还能多明显

别说你会难过 别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

teary bday

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common

lalala~

well, was just free + bored...so decided to come and ha-la for a while haha

Hmm..today spent the mornings practising dance, afternoon practise singing, a little bit tired...but skip skip~ the interesting thing that happened today was when i was having a nap at my sister's bedroom this afternoon, i heard birds singing! they were chirping with different kinds of tones, pitches and rhythm, it just combines and make out a wonderful song!
i've heard of birds singing in the fairytales, but this is the first time i heard it real life.
it was kinda amazing and cute^^

and yesterday, i had a gathering with a few of my old secondary schoolmates. they were cute as ever^^ had a happy time since im getting quite bored to the extreme around here at sp alone. miss some frens~~
well everybody changes. some were extra successful at our age, some turned somewhat negative. some still remains as comfortable as ever^^ (s) but they were all still friendly. at least they were able to show some appreciation to our friendship, willingly to spend time together^^
altho everyone has their own diff frens now~
i realized i was as common as ever haha...we were talking bout stories of our frens...and i realized i got no stories to talk about! i hv a normal life, having my decent course, a great family, a stable relationship, no extra big troubles...i reli hv a very good life haha...but a little too common as well...
tats actually something to appreciate^^ altho not as interesting as some people would like it...
but im reli lucky enough to hv the things i hv now~

oops...gotta get off and get my chores done b4 dad scolds me again! hahaha
so will stop here for now ta~

need someone to talk

I need someone to talk..... anyone will do.....

sick . not me . me? not strong enough

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today is a gift

whoa..found a super meaningful quote today while browsing thru my fren's blog...

"Today is a gift, that's why it's called The PRESENT"

isnt this meaningful? i mean...it's true!
how beautiful it is....
so...today is a gift for everyone, and everyone should appreciate every new day you wake into and make good use of it! instead of wasting it numbly....

well, i've always known bout this all along... but i was still wasting time everyday..watching movies, doing nth meaningful enuf... Guess should snap right out of it from now on!
Everyday should be about living life to the full or living it for the future!

but guess wat...i love lazying off and relaxing... well, i guess i can take a holiday once in a while, once a week maybe? haha.... wat's the point living to the fullest when i cant enjoy my life the way i want rite? hah...=p

k...tat's it then. gambatte! ^^

oh my goodness...dreams shattered by sudden decision from dad...

oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness.....

im upset enuf already with today but there was even an error when i try to post my post jz now!!!!!! my god!!! im going CRAZY~~ shit...=.=

fine...i was saying today i had a very damn bad day...

first my sing k session went boom...when my sister couldnt find someone to fetch her back from work and i had to do it...

then...i missed the time dear was looking for me when he felt unhappy....i felt totally bad bcz im useless for not being there for him when i needed him...i totally understand tat feeling...it jz sucks... im sorry hubby....

and then i accidentally answered his call which was totally stupid and cost him a lot of money...although it wasnt my fault as i couldnt ever hv known it was him under the circumstances...

and then the worst is dad decided tat unlike usual, i should not get any money from him to buy cny clothes this year!!! reason was : i already can earn my own money
my dreams are jz totally shattered...cz now i could not afford the higher end clothes i was patiently waiting the whole yr to buy it for the nx year's new year....
our tradition was dad giving us a certain amount of money to buy new year clothes and wear them for the whole year...=.= this is already a sucky tradition but i got over it...i jz wished to use this cny special treat to buy some higher end clothes which i crave for but could never afford it myself...and its now all gone...
i've already spent a lot this hols i don think i hv enuf to spend for higher end clothes....and in order to make sure i hv enuf to buy my new year clothes...i need to sacrifice and save on lots of stuff i've been craving to buy...or eat...or enjoy....T.T
and i was so so so looking forward to the shopping spree i could hv gotten in kl this year end...but...now its gone~ ALL GONE~ i could not afford any spree .....................................
byebye high end clothes...byebye shoes...byebye bag....byebye eye bag corrector gel...byebye colored contact lenses....byebye new specs....byebye new hp....byebye great present for dear....byebye sing k session...byebye great gift for mom....byebye jogoya....byebye everything i hv dreamt for....T.T

IM UPSET tat my dream is gone gone gone~~ but...wat can i do?
now economy is bad....i don blame dad either actually...just upset...i need time to adjust to new dreams and concept T.T

haiz.....i still don hv a new dream yet...will think of a new plan soon...hv to start counting finance stuff...hate it...=.= gosh~

and i guess i shud start to live a poor life from now on...great^^ ....wth

XIAO HONG JEN'S PROMO TOUR + CELCOM PROMO AFTER PARTY

it was yesterday!
xiao-hong-jen had his last stop of his promo tour at gurney plaza. hmm...i don think he is tat famous now, there wasnt tat much fans yesterday either. anw, he is DEF a star to watch out for hehe^^
he's really very talented! he composes all his songs which are super damn nice..and he plays the piano and keyboard damn damn well! >.<
i was head over heels in him after his live performance, he was great in piano skills and what a great voice, it was even more nicer than in recordings! how rare can this be...live singing even greater than in recordings...woot! love him! hehe... this is his first album, so 10 songs. 1 was a mixture of min nan yu and chinese, that song(看袂落去) is very nice and is now reluctant to get out of my head^^ then there is another song 原来你就在我身边, which is vr vr nice too. 你是我的树头 a min nan yu song written for his dearest grandmother, vr touching. 连贝多芬都想告诉你 the piano part was jz awesome! he plays it all by himself~ the rest of his songs were great too...i actually loved his whole album, no regrets on buying it and letting him sign it! ^^ hee~ anw i really think those unfamous singers should hire me and adel to be their backup fans cz we were so professional in being fans lol. we were totally 自high for the whole session lol...bringin g up the atmosphere...we were practically screaming our lungs out! hahahaha... but i do enjoy it a lot haha...guess im a vr 38 gal =p i was always the one 自high with my frens and being the only ones shouting lk crazy ppl in events haha... we took quite a few photos with xiao-hong-jen himself^^

xiao-hong-jen signing the album for me^^

playing the keyboard enthutiastically!

with xiao-hong-jen yay!

besides xiao-hong-jen, we met jym as well! he was the mc for the event. he was reli cute and friendly haha...we managed to get him to take a pic with us hehe...

me and jym

this is ps, a's dai sou hehe...luv her hair anw =p

who's interested in trying xiao-hong-jen's songs out can try it here

after the event, our bosses from the dealer company working on the celcom promotion event im working for this break, p and wf treated us a great meal at the seafood restaurant balihai hehe...
was too hungry to take the pictures of the food, it was quite ok^^ but rather expensive pity wf's wallet...huhu..hah
nx we went for karaoke session at redbox! i enjoyed it a lot hohoho...altho not as much as going with dear cz 2 ppl sing can enjoy even more hah! Def going for another session in this few weeks time...no matter with mom or ni kekeke...im craving for sing k a lot this break~~

me and a

group of c promoter gals

had a nice day with u guys

xmas tree in g hotel

me a and her fren f

haha...a little out of topic note...im lovin tat top im wearing! lol...my fav outfit i own currently^^ but my hair...haiz....if i hadnt go to trim it, i shud hv a nicer hair matching tat outfit...T.T


and xmas is near! there are lots of options for activities out there...to kl...to singapore...to pg...
BUT...im giving up all of them...choosing to follow tradition and go to the xmas party with my family! hehe...
1st reason is not to throw my parents alone to hv their xmas without their kids around...tat would be pathetic >.<
and nx is im going down kl on 29th d....impossible go there and back for xmas rite...so byebye interesting xmas celebration w frens~
im sticking with my family^^

it feels cosy =p

the start

Lol...hi...haha
Well I've finally decided to start a new blog all over again! Hah...
i dont know this is my which attempt ad lol...and haiz haha...

well, the past few attempts were a failure cz i dont know what to write and sometimes im lazy to write it after tiring days...
there was one which was quite a success but it turned out to be too emotional and long-winded lol...but that account was now closed off d...very sad =(

this attempt, i swear im going to cancel off this account if i didnt happen to succeed haha...feel guilty of occupying the account spaces =p i've forgot my username and pw of my previous accounts hah..

hmm..i dont know how will this attempt turn out but im thinking of recording my feelings and incidents in my life so i can look back and really experience my everyday life instead of just running through hectic or numb days and nights, living uneventful and meaninglessly. that's a total waste of life...i must get out of that! hehe

well..all the best for myself in my Nth attempt haha...and hope i don get too emotional and end up getting all long-winded and stuff =p